Slipping through my fingers

The whole college process is so overwhelming. The reality is that I fell out of love for a college. Of course this would happen to me. Just when I fall out of love for a school, my parents fall head over heels. Why do you ask? Becasuse they really want me. They are giving me many opportunities and such. I know I should be happy, but I can't, knowing my dreams are slipping away. And this school does not compare moneywise. I'm usually a just go with it kinda girl. Thinking about the future is freaking me out. It used to just be an idea; a dream. Now it actually matters. I have to know what I want. I only get one shot, so I have to make it right.