Hello readers! I know you have missed the ever interesting life of me. Where have I been, you ask? With much meditation and self reflection, I am single yet again. I must say though that I am thankful for the ever painful experience. It has shown me what I want in a relationship and what to look forward to. He was a Rumpelstiltskin to my Snow White and if you know the story correctly, they do not fit together as a pair. Snow White....an independent strong young woman should be paired with her prince. And every girl wants her Prince Charming...not only for his looks but also because every girl just wants a man who can dance.
I have learned that you cannot force two totally different pieces together that cant fit. Forcing love only leads to pain, which if I were a puzzle piece wedged in a crevice where I don't fit, I would be in a lot of pain...and possibly claustrophobic. And yes, although I was that cliche girl that broke up with her boyfriend over the phone, it had to be done. The truth was being away from him, I didn't miss him. I didn't talk to him as much and as the days ticked on, I realized it was weighing on me more and more. Love is a feeling that when you feel it should come easily. Love should come easily and be illuminated every time you see them and in everything you do. The love for myself reigned true, but for my not so prince charming, the flame flickered weak. The truth is revealed over time to the eyes and with my rose colored glasses finally taken off, at last I see the light....er truth. (Disney pun intended). Every now and again the incident plays over in my head and beats on my heart not because I secretly love him, but I thought he liked me too. He was the Prince Hans of the Southern Isles to my Princess Ana of Arrandale. Hans used Princess Ana as a symbol and a way to capture the kingdom. He used her to gain power for himself and likewise, I was used as a way to be his confidence for which he never had.I was hurt in the process and although I have forgiven him for his wrongs, many a night I would look at the stars and wonder where my Kristoff is! So I have swapped my rose colored glasses for a new awesome pair of shades and I am ready to hit the streets for the summer.
With the summer comes the freedom of late nights, early morning sunrises, and many many campfires. With that in my past my future lies ahead and I have learned that I need to just live in the present. I have started to read a book by Jason Evert about finding your soul mate without losing your soul. Hopefully this can give me clarity of what to look forward to in the future.
To be continued...
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